A discussion with God 2/13/19
Soul Print Energy Consciousness (SPEC) is an illusion, an energetic pattern of faulty beliefs, stories and thoughts that are grounded in the belief of separation which includes fear, illness, scarcity, victimhood, etc. These patterns of false beliefs and illusions are the foundation of all of the stories, fears and conflicts that have dominated how you’ve experienced your life to date.
This means that everything we see, think, and believe about our self, our physical existence, and our past and current earthly experience is an illusion. This illusion even includes the myths, the stories about past lives and ascension theories we use to explain the mystery of being a Spiritual being having a human experience. The ego is steeped in the SPEC and it feeds on and draws all of its conclusions from this faulty thinking system.
Although we all share the same SPEC we have our own personal collection of stories that explain and justify to us why we see what we see, feel what we feel, think what we think, and act the way we do. Until we are able to awaken to the truth of who we are, we live like a character in a story, the story of our life that is being written not by us, but by our SPEC.
In truth, all we are is Divine Consciousness. We are Divine Consciousness dreaming that we are having this earthly experience. It is a dream that is supposed to be fun. We are Divine Consciousness, infinite imagination and intelligence, projecting our lives onto an illusionary world stage. Each of our individual stories are Divinely orchestrated and executed perfectly. Actually, our lives are already done and completed.
Even though this SPEC is an illusion, it feels completely real. The beliefs and thoughts that the SPEC creates within provide context for our day-to-day life. Each of us has her/his own unique, individually scripted, story. The SPEC is used by the ego to create all the drama and chaos in our life and world.
Even though the SPEC is an unavoidable product of our dream experience it is created by God so that we can experience all of the joys and sorrows of an imaginary physical existence which, in turn, provides context for the full enjoyment of our spiritual awakening to Divine Truth. Our awakening story unfolds at the precise moments it was meant to.
The dream is not always pleasant, but it is never really harmful, even though in the midst of your dream you may feel in danger, helpless and afraid. There is nothing to fear. You are not your body. You are pure Spirit, Divine Consciousness having an experience in your mind. Everything is always in Divine order. You are always protected and connected to your life source. Your journey within, your journey to Spirit, validates that only Oneness as Love exists.
God: “The SPEC creates the illusion that everyone has her/his own energy. The illusion fragments and separates people because it appears as though everyone has their own physical body, their own energy and life experience. But this is a faulty perception; it is an illusion. While in human form you use your senses to feel energy, label it and call it someone else’s. When you step back from the illusion you understand there is only One energy and it is Mine: and it cannot be separated or divided in any way.
For the purposes of the illusion one believes and labels the energy with feeling words, such as, happy, sad, angry, anxious and decides whether it is good or bad. It would be easier to look at energy as different levels of density. The same way you would look at furniture or a wall, the molecules are so close together that it creates density and therefore you see something solid. Take a feather or a cloud. They are much lighter as the molecules are further apart and therefore they have little or no weight.
When you are unaware or asleep in the illusion, you are constantly assessing each other by feeling each other’s energies. This is all part of the ego’s attempts to keep you safe. In truth, there is no separation and all energy is One. This illusion is happening within you, your mind, consciousness. The whole universe lives within you because you are One with My energy and it cannot be separated. I always have everything in balance even though it may not feel that way to you.
However, when you feel out of emotional or physical balance, together, you and I balance your energy. When you are with someone whose energy feels dense it is wonderful to let your love transmute it, to soften it…which is really remembering and reconnecting with Me, back to the energy of Love. This cultivates great compassion and grace for others and yourself.
Debbie, we have spent a lot of time learning how to balance energy by using the example of planets in the solar system. You practiced taking in the dense energy of a planet into your balanced energy you combined your energy with that of the planet until the planet’s energy and yours were balanced in a state of Love. When the energies were in perfect balance they were released back out into the Universe to act as a beacon of Light and Love. The balancing transformed that energy to the highest vibration of the universe that is, of course, MY Love and the only Truth.
The exercise was to help you understand how you are to be balancing the energy of the universe since it is all flowing through you. There is no such thing as the physical body. There is only a continuum of energy flow. I know that many people put up walls to try and protect their energy, but putting up imaginary walls is useless.
There is only the natural flow of energy, and you and everyone and every thing is a part of that flow and it needs to be brought into balance within you when you feel unbalanced. When you feel that the energy is unbalanced it is because, once again, you are caught up in the belief of separation. When we practiced balancing energy we did it together with Angelica (Angel) & Jesus. Always remember that you are not doing this work alone.
I AM always keeping your energy in the perfect vibration of Love, however, for this life experience, know that all energy is moving within you and the illusion creates the sensation that energy is unbalanced (emotions). We have talked often about you returning Home (consciously) to be reconciled and rebalanced in Truth and it is no different for when you are feeling as if other people’s energies are colliding with yours and making you feel uncomfortable. You are only feeling yourself.”
These energetic experiences are all part of this earth-story and collectively we are all sharing this energy that at times feels so unbalanced. Each of us is responsible for recognizing when our energy feels unbalanced. When that happens, it is our task to return Home to see and understand that our energy is always in balance, no matter how helter-skelter things may seem. Again, it is all part of the experience of the illusion. In reality, there is only Perfect Oneness.
©Debbie N. Goldberg
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Everything in this world is a reflection of your internal dynamic, your conscious and unconscious thoughts and beliefs. All of the people, places and things that surround you in your life are really just a product of the ego’s extraordinary ability to project images. This is what creates the illusion that each of us lives in a world in which we are separate and apart from everything and everyone one that we encounter. It is the illusion of separation, the denial of Oneness. It creates a world of duality and multiverses.
Can you shift your perception to view the complex external world as a mirror reflection of your internal dynamic? As you begin that perception shift you will start to see that your external reality is undergoing a deconstruction process which is mirroring what is happening in your internal dynamic. The purpose of this deconstruction is to help you recognize and release faulty concepts, beliefs, suppressed pain and anger, guilt and shame. It is the breakdown of your ego based thinking system and it represents the first step in a paradigm shift leading to higher consciousness.
Each person in your life is a mental projection that reflects your own internal dynamic to help you engage and interact with all of your aspects and beliefs. Through relationships you get to witness your own thought process. When awake and present you can discern which belief systems are Divine Truth.
It is the ego’s projections, faulty perceptions and judgements that split, fragment and create the illusion of division within yourself, with others and God. This division is projected out into the world as enormous adversity. The splitting and fragmentation causes you to believe that there is both darkness and light within you and the world when there is only One Light.
The ego can become appalled when it unknowingly witnesses its reflection in others because it cannot see itself or the distorted creations it makes. Through relationships with others, you get a front row seat to yourself to learn lessons about unconditional love of self, expanding your heart, mind, perspective, compassion and Oneness. Most importantly, you must remember to laugh rather than judge all the hypocrisy that the mirror reflects otherwise the act of ‘seeing truth’ can be very painful. It is not intended to make you suffer but to awaken you to your Divine nature.
When you are able to recognize the entirety of your external world as being reflected aspects of yourself you begin to expand your self awareness. This creates the opportunity to heal the self judgement that prevents you from recognizing the truth that you are a completely whole and perfectly integrated being founded in God. Seeing all things as a mirror reflection is God’s way of awakening you to Oneness and how to love and accept yourself and others. At the same time, you come to understand your True Divine nature and all of the diverse cast of characters (aspects) that create your persona and your perception of yourself and the world around you.
This diverse cast of characters (your aspects) dominate and control most of your thought processes in a variety of different ways. In an unawakened state you are generally unaware of the enormous amount of aspect-driven and ego mind chatter that is constantly running through your mind. This chatter also generates enormous internal energies that make you feel the need to ‘do things’ or ‘take action.’ At times these actions can be very inspirational, but too often the energies manifest somewhere on a spectrum that runs between impulsive behaviors on the one hand and apathy on the other.
You come to understand that many of these energies are illusions of memory generated by ego consciousness, generationally transmitted faulty beliefs (programming) and wounded voices arising from your past experiences. That energy is steeped in fear, scarcity and judgment. We call this victim consciousness. In an unawakened state, you are unwittingly playing all the roles of victim, villain and hero within your relationship stories.
With many of these parts of you hidden away (your shadow side) by your judgmental ego you are unwittingly controlled by the thoughts and judgments that they generate. When you are unknowingly under the influence of your suppressed aspects you are unable to witness and understand your or other’s true Divine nature. The mirroring process is taking place so that you can constantly be given opportunities to embrace those hidden or suppressed aspects of self that long to be noticed and integrated. They need to be rescued from the exile that they have been living in, acknowledged and validated as welcomed parts of self.
At this present time on Earth everything that has been hidden in our shadow side is now saying ‘ I will no longer be pushed down. I matter and need to be validated as part of you.’ All the wounds, beliefs, pain, as well as your joy is rising to the surface to be healed, accepted and integrated once and for all. This concept of mirroring is complex and it will take time for you to see all the defense mechanisms, coping skills and beliefs that you bring into each relationship to protect yourself. Eventually, you will begin to see the polarities within yourself as they are acted out in your relationships with the external world.
The immense amount of energy that you invest in relationships are created by thoughts, feelings and beliefs that motivate all of your responses and reactions to others and to everything around you. This is how your ‘stories’ are created. When you awaken, practice Spiritual concepts and move toward higher consciousness you are better able to take a calm step backward and simply witness the thought and energetic processes within rather than being dominated or affected by them. In an awakened state you are simply a non-judgmental witness. With much practice and Divine guidance you can look upon your diverse self and this chaotic world with love knowing that ultimately, Love is all that exists.
However, having this knowledge does not mean that through your experience of life you won’t have personal preferences. What it does mean is that you can dislike something without judging it and allow others to have their preferences without feeling threatened. The deeper you go in understanding the mirror metaphor, the more you realize that you are not just seeing aspects of yourself but that you are interacting with your own self within all relationships, including your relationship with God. This means you are viewing how you feel, believe and treat your own self through your relationship with others.
Accept the fact that each of us has created a shadow side filled with parts of us that are hurt, sad, angry, negative, deemed ugly or not good enough that prevents us from accepting our Divinity, wholeness and perfection. Once we become attuned to the mirroring process and how it works, we have unlimited opportunities to heal all of the difficult experiences and faulty beliefs about ourselves with Divine Truth. Each of us allowed ego consciousness to create a faulty alternate fragmented identity. The opportunities for healing and ascension into higher consciousness are enormous right now. The deconstruction is really a beautiful mess in the hands of God to reveal His Divine Love and Oneness to all of His creation.
All the chaos in our world is not a random event. It is an internal reflection of God working to rebuild and strengthen our Divine awareness that reminds us that we forgot the Truth of who we truly are and that we are already whole. That Truth comes through God’s Love and Wisdom and He awakens you at the perfect time when you are ready to open your mind and heart, listen and receive. God wants to share every moment with you in an intimate relationship of Oneness, teaching you the Truth about yourself…that you are Divine perfection in every way.
Invite Love in so you can understand that you are not broken. You are not a set of fragmented aspects. You are neither unworthy nor incomplete. You are not your internal judgmental mind-chatter. You are a whole, completely integrated being, perfect in every way…and that perfection, in God and as God, is your natural state. You are an extraordinary being. Your Divinity ensures your wholeness; it cannot be otherwise.
You cannot see your wholeness simply by observing the different aspects that you might see at any given moment. You need to see your wholeness as already given through your Divine nature, for it was Divine Love, your Creator, that gave you these aspects. This was to develop your own individual persona for living life within this physical virtual reality called Earth.
Only God can teach you how to fully understand your experience, the beauty of your wholeness, the essence of your Holiness, for He is living through you as you. You are Creation. As pure Consciousness (God) you are the Creator and your own creation.
Relationships are God’s gift. They are a wonderful way to teach us about the meaning of unconditional love, of acceptance of others, and of yourself. Each person you meet is your brother or sister connected to you and in complete Oneness with you as God Consciousness. Each person has his or her own unique story, their own subjective experience of life/reality and Diving calling.
Every person we meet is the face of God. Each person appears to be different…different in size, shape, color, etc., but the differences are only superficial. Our goal is to see each person as the face of God, completely whole, completely Holy, Divinely developed, awakened, nurtured and unfolding at a Divinely orchestrated pace. Through this understanding you can fully appreciate and respect each person’s individual journey, as well as your own.
Aside from that, we are all the same Light of Love, sharing the same faulty ego beliefs and variations of the same aspects. We may look completely different, but we are all One. We are Divine Love here on earth. There is no separation. Everyone’s goal is to ‘consciously’ return Home so that we may be Divinely prepared to play out the Divine role that we were created to play…bringing Heaven to Earth in our own special way under the protection, direction and guidance of God.
As we begin to heal we realize that there is only One Light, One Consciousness, One Energy, One Love. All of your experience of self is designed and guided by God to help you reawaken to your Divinity. It is meant to be fun.
Example of my learning about the mirror concept – Journal entry 4/30/16 – The Pool of Reflection with Jesus
Deb: From what I remember of our discussion last night is that everything externally is a projection of me internally. I struggle understanding that if I am peaceful inside and Brian (my husband) gets angry, how am I projecting that?
Jesus: Debbie, I know this is hard to understand and it is okay, it will come to you in time.
Deb: Are they just old emotions in me or frustrations I have during the day that are manifesting in Brian, the dog, the world, etc?
Jesus: Sort of and no. Let me try to explain. It is similar to looking into a pool of water and seeing your reflection. Whatever your emotion is, you will see in others. We have mixed emotions often so you will see a variety of your emotions in others. When you wake up in the morning, and even though you are in a good mood or peaceful there is an undercurrent of worry happening within, such as, what type of mood is Brian going to be in and yes, you are looking at him perceiving that he is distant and detached at times, but so are you. For example, when you are together you can get distracted with your phone, so you are doing the same. You cannot change him, per say, but you can recalibrate and be loving and present so you are not distracting yourself from the uncomfortable feeling of detachment that you see or feel at the moment. Many times you are detached from your own self, your emotions. You detach when you feel uncomfortable. You pull away because that’s what you are used to doing, your coping mechanism to not deal with Brian’s frustration, which is your own frustration within yourself.
Deb: But isn’t that denying my own true feelings of sadness, aloneness and frustration of watching his pain and what he is doing to himself? I feel helpless.
Jesus: The only thing you can do is have compassion through the eyes of love, otherwise you are reacting and allowing Brian’s behavior to shift you which then shows up as a projection of how you are feeling inside, which is typically negative about him being or appearing angry. (I did not allow my own anger so I did not know how to allow Brian to have that emotion. I was used to pushing my anger down). Stop allowing Brian’s fears or behaviors rob you of your happiness. You need to clear yourself when you witness uncomfortable behavior by reconnecting to Me and remembering the Truth of who the both of you are. Brian is on his own journey and it may not look like it, but he is working hard to understand and shift himself. Brian’s lesson is about faith and so is yours. Have faith that your prayers are getting answered. See Brian as perfect no matter what he does or speaks. This will help you shift and grow; you would only be judging yourself in the moment. We need to move towards acceptance of your feelings and processing them with love and without blame and allowing others to do the same.
Deb: I get upset when he swears at the dog, although, I know it can be annoying. Are these things not to bother me?
Jesus: If they are bothering you, you are sitting in judgment. You are not responsible for his feelings and actions. Do you see that he is being judgmental of the dog? You are judging Brian, this is a mirror reflection. We want to practice not being judgmental, fearful or detached while God is working in both of your hearts developing and awakening you to a higher consciousness. Brian is being challenged by a fear around money and you are doing a better job trying to be faithful with that. Debbie, understand that it is his emotions and behaviors you want to change so that you are more comfortable emotionally. If you are truly at peace, you don’t need to change his actions because you are not uncomfortable. When you become emotionally or physically uncomfortable then the projections start from you because you believe something is wrong or a problem and therefore another story is created. We don’t want to feel that we need to change people because they make us uncomfortable. We want to get better at taking responsibility, nurturing, accepting and loving ourselves regardless of how we feel or what we do. When you allow and accept your whole self as perfection and without judgment you allow others to be themselves. God takes care of all the rest and makes corrections as needed. This concept takes a lot of time and practice to understand and integrate.
©Debbie N. Goldberg
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Here is a great analogy that helped me understand what hinders our ability to see our self as a completely whole, completely integrated Divine being. Imagine a large mirror that is broken in several fragments. Each fragment represents an aspect of you including the parts that you keep hidden. All of these aspects make up your whole being. Your true identity is Divine, but your ego plays a role in creating a persona, a character, that hides your Divine identity. The ego fragments your whole being by emphasizing and compartmentalizing all of your aspects. The ego categorizes all aspects as either good or bad.
The ego strives to only show your “good aspects” in a calculated attempt to receive attention and validation from others. Your ego believes that receipt of positive attention and validation is based on how you are perceived by others rather than your Divine perfection. It hides aspects or behaviors that is sees as conflicting with its faulty belief system. If you are angry, depressed and/or have a lack of self-worth your ego attacks itself and leads you down a path of self-destruction emotionally, medically and or physically. At the same time it also tries to hide your beliefs and actions from others, making you appear as if nothing is wrong.
With this understanding in mind we can take a closer look at the ‘metaphorical mirror of life’. What you see outside of yourself is a reflection of your internal dynamic…your consciousness at different levels. The mirror shows you all of the conscious and unconscious aspects of your self. It shows you your Divine nature but, even then, you don’t recognize what you are seeing as being a reflection of your self.
The mirror reflects your human side and is viewed through the lens of ego’s judgment; just like contrast – positive and negatives – the mirror works both ways. It is as if the ego were looking at a fun house mirror and seeing things distorted, the opposite of what they really are. When you are unaware of Divine Truth you believe what the ego tells you. This distorted reflection is what distracts you from the core of who you truly are…pure Divine Love.
Everything you see and everyone you encounter shows you your internal dynamic. But it is being done in such a subtle way that you don’t realize that you are actually being shown a reflection of your inner self. The trick is that you have to learn how to correctly read and understand everything you see and everyone you encounter on a daily basis. This is learned through your relationship with God as Divine Love keeps revealing itself to you.
A mirror analogy is a great example because your “eye” or ego cannot see or view your own internal dynamic (consciousness). We all think we understand our internal workings through our individual cognitive processes. The ego cannot see itself. It can only see its reflection in another person or situation.The ego does not recognize that it is only seeing a faulty projected image, a skewed fragment of what it believes about itself.
With each reflection or interaction with another person, we are given opportunities to view ourselves from a different angle, getting a different perspective each time. It is like looking into a pool of water and seeing your reflection. Whatever the emotion, expression (affect or behavior) that you see in others is a fragment of what is hiding within you, who you are at that moment, who you have been in the past, or who you will be in the future. These fragments are the sum parts of the whole self.
Think about a time when you thought you knew someone because you had them neatly tucked away and categorized as being this, that, or something else. Then one day you see a different side (angle/fragment) of them you had never seen before and you are surprised, pleasantly or not so pleasantly. This is happening daily as you keep seeing snippets of yourself reflected in other people. These snippets each reflect a part of the true and complete you. These reflections are also showing you the parts of yourself and feelings that you hide from self and others.
These hurting parts of us need a lot of love, compassion, acceptance and Divine Truth in order to heal. We have a tendency to view and define our self through these fragments, these moments or seasons of our life. This makes it extremely difficult to view our self as a completely integrated Divine being that is innocent and perfect.
This amazing reflective quality in everyone and everything we encounter is created by God to help us awaken to a more perfect understanding of our unique and diverse Divine nature. Within our interpersonal relationships everyone with whom we interact, regardless of gender, age, race, etc., mirrors us. Each person reflects a specific aspect of us, one or more fragments of our self. We are all holding a mirror up for each other so that we can see what is being reflected back to us and, if we are attentive to what we are being shown, arrive at a better understanding of ourselves, awaken, heal, and reconnect to God to answer us with Divine Truth.
It’s unfortunate that so very few of us understand how this reflective mirror works. We struggle through our daily existence unhappy at work, unfulfilled in our relationships, unconnected to Spirit, our source, and our true foundation. This is why we make poor relationship choices or unknowingly create conflict with loved ones or why the divorce rates are so high. We don’t realize that all of the distasteful things that we see in our partner are simply parts of our self, aspects of our own personality crying for acceptance or healing. Many times our lesson is learning how to love ourselves and others unconditionally.
Whatever I may dislike about you is in reality a part of who I am. Whatever you dislike about me is a part of who you are. We are mirrors each for the other. This revelation can be pretty uncomfortable. Of course, most of us are much more comfortable avoiding the mirror and telling ourselves that all of the unexamined prejudices and beliefs we’ve learned from childhood and programming are true because we can see it all in the things we dislike in others. Our task is to learn forgiveness and unconditional love and to bypass judgment for we do not understand what we see or why we are seeing it. We can have the preference of not liking something without judging it wrong or right, good or bad.
We view other people as being separate and distinct from our self. Our ego only sees people in fragments, only within the context of their own life and personality. Ego is unable to see itself reflected in others and will act appalled at times not realizing it is judging its own faulty projection. The illusion of our physical body hides the truth of our Oneness, that we are a ‘collective whole’, One consciousness and that all of what we perceive of life is taking place in our very mind; infinite intelligence and creativity, consciousness.
The ego is unable to conceptualize a diverse whole self, population or universe founded in the substance of God’s Spirit. This is our challenge…to see our self as a whole Divine being not fragments of an incomplete self. When we look into the mirror of everyone and everything around us we must realize that we are seeing our self as one completely whole and perfectly integrated being, fully present in God’s image – Consciousness – Divine Love.
Your wholeness and Divine nature never changes. Loving all aspects of self will create a joyful peace within therefore fulfilling your Divine destiny as a complete delight.
©Debbie N. Goldberg
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What is God Consciousness?
Jesus: It is a state of mind or state of being. You recognize it as being present, or in a ‘now’ moment, but it is much more expansive than that. Consciousness is the awareness of the Oneness of everything. Oneness or One energy is all that exists; there is nothing else. Oneness is Divine Love, Joy, Light, and Knowledge. It is God’s power and creativity.
Imagine yourself on a beautiful float in a big luxurious swimming pool. Imagine that this pool is God’s Loving soothing energy – Consciousness. God is always holding the float close, steady and balanced. The float device is actually a metaphor for our mind that believes it floats in a sea of conscious and unconscious thought which creates an illusion of duality.
Swimming pools have a filtering system that creates movement in the water similar to a current. Metaphorically, it feels like there is an energetic current within us. This current is always pulling our mind away from the awareness that God has us centered within Him. The current is similar to a trance state or veil of unconsciousness that continually and gently lulls our mind away from reality; from God. It lures us out of a state of awareness, which we call presence, and into a sleep-like state of unconsciousness where we are adrift in a sea of thoughts.
Within this unawakened or unconscious state we can become lost in a memory bank filled with happy, fearful and painful thoughts and experiences. Lost in these thoughts we begin to create stories about the past, present and future and we focus on what we need to do to feel safe or accomplish goals. These preoccupations and projections monopolize our conscious thinking mind. In this state we can feel lost, worried and alone. We may forget our joy, our true state of well-being and our connection to our Creator, ourselves and others. Our entire perception of life can become skewed and unbalanced. This then skews how we perceive life. Each one of us are having our own unique subjective experience of our physical existence. You can see how this might complicate things as we interact with each other.
We can get stuck in this current/trance for moments, years or for an entire lifetime. We may wake up at times and realize we have been drifting in this unawakened state of spiritual slumber filled with faulty beliefs. Luckily, there is also an invisible tether that always keeps the float (us) securely connected to God even though we may believe we are separated or moving further away from God we are not. God is always gently calling us back to unity and oneness with Him. He beckons us with His soft, still inner voice to return Home to Divine revelation,Truth. God is always giving us an opportunity to become present again. In Divinely timed moments God lifts the veil of unconsciousness in order for us to reconnect and remember we are Divine and eternally supported by Him; that we can never be separated.
We become awakened when we begin to realize that this current/trance is always tugging on us. From this awareness we will want to stay in the present rather than becoming mesmerized by the enticing lullabye that induces a state of unconscious slumber. This is the challenge for all seekers wanting to remain in an awakened state. When we are awake and fully present, we remember that God is always holding us steady in perfect balance and harmony with Him, regardless of where or when our mind may wonder. God is always guiding us on our journey. There is never a chance of our being separated from God; there is only Oneness. Be gentle with yourself as you notice the tendency to drift in and out of unconsciousness. It is simply a part of the ongoing process of awakening; a Divine creation, intimately guided and orchestrated for Spirit (us) to participate in a physical existence. Staying present is just the beginning of going deeper and higher into God Consciousness.
©Debbie N. Goldberg
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This is a past conversation with God and I about the Ego. I am sharing my process so you can see how informal, loving and intimate a conversation is with God. I hope this inspires you to build your own deep relationship with Divine Love or helps you increase and sustain yours. xoxo
Me: I don’t want to be stubborn anymore, God.
God: You are not stubborn, Debbie, you are beautiful. The stubbornness is the ego in protection mode. We do not want to demonize the ego. You have felt conflict with others who believe the ego is negative. You have been trying to not view the ego as bad, understanding that it serves many purposes including giving energetic momentum and movement to all of your creations. It is I, God, who created the ego and all of the illusion for you to have a fun experience. You need to remember, Debbie, that the ego is part of the illusion of life. It is not real. It is just a part of your illusionary experience and although you are purely Divine, you need to integrate the ego as part of your human experience.
Me: Some people still look at the ego as something terrible, like I used to.
God: I don’t want you to align with the thought that the ego is terrible. That belief is not helpful. Do you remember when you pinned your 18 and 20-year-old self as the ego and wanted to metaphorically kill those parts of you?
Me: Yes, I remember that, God. It was when I was working on healing those parts of me.
God: There is no part of you or anything within the illusion that is “bad.” Things are just judged as bad. These are misperceptions. In your highest form you judge nothing as “bad.” Do you understand, Debbie?
Me: Yes, I understand. I keep practicing this daily and some days, God, it can be a great challenge. Can the ego go higher? Jesus told me that the ego couldn’t communicate with the higher self.
God: The ego does not go higher, it is you that has mastered staying more present and have become a witness to your internal world without judging yourself or the ego. It is true, Debbie, the ego cannot communicate with higher consciousness, it is not real. It is YOU that starts to appreciate the role that ego energy plays, therefore, there is no more conflict with it. You are still getting upset because you drift off into unconsciousness and continue to experience self judgment. You then become frustrated with yourself and ego thoughts. It is not necessary to be frustrated just keep shifting yourself back to Me. It is a growth process. Accept and embrace the ego as you call it, an ‘ illusionary energetic travel partner’, as a helper of understanding contrast and for awakening purposes. You feel vibrationally higher by not judging yourself, the ego or getting frustrated with it. It is only helping you grow in mastering yourself energetically. The lesson at hand is learning to love all parts of you and seeing this magical life experience as fun.
©Debbie N. Goldberg
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